So this morning I sat down with a stack of pancakes and turned on last night's episode of The Real Housewives of New York. This week Jill and Bethany finally came face to face to attempt to hash out the issues they were having. This was weeks in the making and was brought to us in part by Ramona and her idiotic ideas.
As could have been predicted Jill and Bethany didn't really come to any closure and they ended up getting into a fight. Bethany was sitting on Ramona's couch crying and Jill was yelling at how toxic Bethany was to her life. Bethany was begging Jill to give her another chance and saying that she needed Jill in her life. The thing that really got me in this whole thing was LuAnn and her stupid attempts to to interfere with everything.
From the beginning of this season Lu Ann has been Jill's new BFF, conveniently taking over the vacancy left by Bethany at the end of last season. And since taking over this extremely important position Lu Ann has been possessive of Jill in a way that rivals the possession that a woman feels over her favorite purse or a lap dog. Thus far in the season Lu Ann has controlled almost all the moves that Jill has made with regards to Bethany. Lu Ann made it her job to make sure that Jill never forgave Bethany.
I feel like this was because Lu Ann just went through a divorce and lost her husband. I think because of this loss she decided that she needed someone to take the place of her husband, someone she could cling to. And that person just ended up being Jill. From watching the way that Jill talks about Bethany and the way they interacted when they were trying to hash things out, I can tell that Jill wants to give Bethany another chance. She wants to give Bethany the chance to be her friend again, she's just a little scared that things will go down hill again.
As someone that has lost friends because an argument with one person was broadcast to many and the fight escalated without my knowledge, I understand where Bethany is and what she is going through. She didn't know that Jill was making people pick sides and she didn't know that this fight was as big as it was. And now Lu Ann someone who has nothing to do with the situation, has stepped in and complicated the situation. She has gotten into Jill's head and told her to hate Bethany and cut her out completely.
I just wish that I knew Lu Ann's address so that I could write her a letter. In that letter I would tell her that she would be a lot better off in life if she learned to mind her own business and stay out of other people's lives. As a "countess" she should know that gossiping isn't very becoming of a lady and that it only makes things worse. And yet she is the biggest gossip of all the woman on the show. I would also tell her that if she wants to be a good friend to Jill she should help her figure out her issues and not just dictate to her how she should deal with things in her life. Jill isn't a 15 year old girl or her sorority sister- she is a grown woman who needs to be allowed to make her decision.
Lu Ann you need to back the F*** off and let Jill be a big girl. You also need to learn the lesson of what goes around comes around. That if you don't learn to keep your nose out of other people's business some one is going to stick their nose in your business and the one time you really don't want them to. It's called karma and even if you don't believe in it- history shows that it holds true most of the time.
Also while watching the show I wanted to write a letter to Bethany. I want to tell her to hang in there and that the one thing she can learn from all of this is who her true friends are. Alex has been such a good friend to her throughout this whole thing and I hope she realizes this and is going to strengthen the friendship. She also needs to see that Ramona really doesn't have her or Jill's best interest at heart. All she wants to do is keep the spotlight on her self- that's exactly why she said all those inflammatory things to Bethany while they walked the Brooklyn Bridge.
Bethany, you need to embrace the good things in your life, and accept that bad. You need to start to accept the fact that not everyone is meant to be in your life forever, some people are just guest stars that make short appreciance and then fade to black. Figure out who the leading ladies and men in you life are and focus on those relationships. Strengthen them and remember that when life gets the hardest is when you'll find out who your true friends are. Out of all the seasons and show I think that New York is my favorite, but I really think that these woman might want to get off tv and work on themselves. Watching this show just makes me happy that I'm not stupid enough to ever let myself be followed around by tv cameras and people that are going to then edit things to make them the most appealing to viewers.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
The Buried LIfe
The buried life is the first "reality" show that MTV has put out that doesn't melt your brain as you watch it. Don't get me wrong I am a strong supporter and big fan of most of the shows on MTV- but this one is different and people are noticing. People are realizing that after years of Laguna Beach, The Hills, 16 & Pregnant and various other shows, The Buried Life is making viewers think and attempting to empower them.
Most know the story behind the show but for those who don't, a quick re-cap. There are 4 friends who are traveling the country in a large purple bus. During this journey they are trying to complete all the items on a bucket-listesk list, all things the guys want to do before they die. An example would be the episode when they attempted to play basketball with Obama- that was one thing they weren't able to complete. However, in addition to fulfilling their goal they also help a stranger along the way. Where ever they are they find someone who has something they want to do before they die, and then help that person do that. It can be simple like help a girl who has a fear of heights go on a roller coaster, to helping a blind man (who loved horses when he could see) ride a horse again. These kids are experiencing all that life has to offer them and helping others along the way. If only our whole generation could get in line with them and feel the same way.
One of the reasons that I love this show so much is that it changellenges the idea that most people hold about our generation: that we just sit on facebook and don't care about anyone but ourselves. So many people think that our generation isn't making the world a better place, the truth is that there are so many young people out there who are changing the world for the better. Most are doing it the way these guys are but at least maybe now they will get some recognition.
I envy the guys on this show because they had to have a lot of courage to do what they are doing. They have departed from what I'm sure society expects from them- they aren't working or in school they're pursuing other things. Sometimes I wish that I could jump on the bus with these guys are really experience life the way they are.
I have to be honest though- the fact that I admire these guys is not the only reason I'm writing about them. Truthfully I had a really strange dream about them last night. I don't remember all the details but from what I do remember they weren't doing the bus thing, they were trying to crash a party and blow something up. I had become friends with them and was hooking up with one of guys- but all the sudden the guy dumped me for Kristen from the Hills. They were about to blow up something when in walks Hugh Hefner, he and I start talking and we realize that Kristen is under age for the event and so she can't go with the guy. When we tell him he dupms her and takes me instead.
Then it jumps to the actual event and we are all in a basement somewhere. It turns out that this is a test run. There are a ton of people in this basement and there is a big thing in the middle of the room filled with water. In the water are these things that look like bombs but they are calling them blooms. I can't really remember what happened but all the sudden everyone is fighting- I get hit in the face and pushed around. I go over to the guy that I'm with and for some reason we are on the floor and wresting- but not in a good way.
I wake up in the hospital, and now a little ER is thrown in. I am being taken care of by Abby for ER. I tell her to tell my date that I'm worse off then I am so that he'll feel bad for dumping me before the party. I am moved into my own room and there are my friends and family. The only thing is that my family isn't my family- its one of the families from another show Make It Or Break It. The in comes Duncan (the guy from the Buried Life) and he feels so bad about everything and gives me a hug and a kiss. Now I'm thinking this dream is going to get good- but as is my luck the alarm clock goes off right at that moment.
I'm not really sure what this dream means, I know that it doesn't mean I'm going to date the guy from the Buried Life. Lets be honest, more then I am not going to date him I'm not ever going to meet him. But it'd be nice to know what this dream means- so if you have any ideas let me know!
Cheers!
Most know the story behind the show but for those who don't, a quick re-cap. There are 4 friends who are traveling the country in a large purple bus. During this journey they are trying to complete all the items on a bucket-listesk list, all things the guys want to do before they die. An example would be the episode when they attempted to play basketball with Obama- that was one thing they weren't able to complete. However, in addition to fulfilling their goal they also help a stranger along the way. Where ever they are they find someone who has something they want to do before they die, and then help that person do that. It can be simple like help a girl who has a fear of heights go on a roller coaster, to helping a blind man (who loved horses when he could see) ride a horse again. These kids are experiencing all that life has to offer them and helping others along the way. If only our whole generation could get in line with them and feel the same way.
One of the reasons that I love this show so much is that it changellenges the idea that most people hold about our generation: that we just sit on facebook and don't care about anyone but ourselves. So many people think that our generation isn't making the world a better place, the truth is that there are so many young people out there who are changing the world for the better. Most are doing it the way these guys are but at least maybe now they will get some recognition.
I envy the guys on this show because they had to have a lot of courage to do what they are doing. They have departed from what I'm sure society expects from them- they aren't working or in school they're pursuing other things. Sometimes I wish that I could jump on the bus with these guys are really experience life the way they are.
I have to be honest though- the fact that I admire these guys is not the only reason I'm writing about them. Truthfully I had a really strange dream about them last night. I don't remember all the details but from what I do remember they weren't doing the bus thing, they were trying to crash a party and blow something up. I had become friends with them and was hooking up with one of guys- but all the sudden the guy dumped me for Kristen from the Hills. They were about to blow up something when in walks Hugh Hefner, he and I start talking and we realize that Kristen is under age for the event and so she can't go with the guy. When we tell him he dupms her and takes me instead.
Then it jumps to the actual event and we are all in a basement somewhere. It turns out that this is a test run. There are a ton of people in this basement and there is a big thing in the middle of the room filled with water. In the water are these things that look like bombs but they are calling them blooms. I can't really remember what happened but all the sudden everyone is fighting- I get hit in the face and pushed around. I go over to the guy that I'm with and for some reason we are on the floor and wresting- but not in a good way.
I wake up in the hospital, and now a little ER is thrown in. I am being taken care of by Abby for ER. I tell her to tell my date that I'm worse off then I am so that he'll feel bad for dumping me before the party. I am moved into my own room and there are my friends and family. The only thing is that my family isn't my family- its one of the families from another show Make It Or Break It. The in comes Duncan (the guy from the Buried Life) and he feels so bad about everything and gives me a hug and a kiss. Now I'm thinking this dream is going to get good- but as is my luck the alarm clock goes off right at that moment.
I'm not really sure what this dream means, I know that it doesn't mean I'm going to date the guy from the Buried Life. Lets be honest, more then I am not going to date him I'm not ever going to meet him. But it'd be nice to know what this dream means- so if you have any ideas let me know!
Cheers!
Friday, February 12, 2010
Oh Canada
As I sit here again watching television I am stunned by the beauty that is this year's opening cermony for the 2010 Olympics in Vancouver. It's amazing what can be done with technology today.
The Olympics, whether they be summer or winter, are one my favorite displays of athletic competition. It the one time that no matter what else is going on in the world nations come together in honor of sportsmanship and compete together. This year there are 82 countries compteting for gold, silver and bronze but like always there are those countries that will never see the podium. One might wonder why even pay the airfare to travel to Canada from Montenegro if your country has little chance of winning.
It's not about winning for many Olympians its about competeing against the best of the best. Its about comparing skills and learning from other athletes. Think of the lessons learned by other snowboarders when they see what Shaun White is capable of in the half-pipe. Sure many of them can't even dream of being as good or better them him, but watching what he does inspires them to try harder and practice longer.
Speaking as some one who has never considered myself to be especially patriotic, I am always shocked by the Olympics. The thing that shocks me is how my heart strings are tugged each time the national anthem is played and the flag is raised. While athletes stand on the podium, choking back tears I too sit in my family room choking back the same tears. I am not an easy crier but play the national anthem, raise the flag and put a teary eyed Michelle Quan on the podium and I'm like a baby. It's a phenomenon that surprises me every time it happens- but its not an unwelcome phenomenon. I'm glad to know that although I am not always enthusiastic about our nation's government that I am still a patriot at heart. I hope that many others can relate to my experience and that they too find themselves reaching for the Kleenex box during the medal ceremonies.
The Olympics this hear are starting with a bang and seem to hold a lot of excitement. Canada has already come out and said that they want to run the podium this year and win more metals then any other country- this may seem like a lofty goal but consider they were third in the metal count in the 2006 Olympics. I trust that the United States, Germany, Norway and others will give the Canadian's a run for their money but I wish them the best of luck. Being from Detroit which is a stone's throw from Canada I feel a ting of patriotism for my neighbor to the north.
I wish all the athletes the best of luck no matter their country. I look forward to watching the competition and all the historic moments that I'm sure will occur over the next few weeks. When I think of the Olympics I can't help but reference both Miracle and Might Ducks 2. Both movies reference the Olympics (although in D2 its called the Junior Goodwill Games) and both are inspiring to say the least. So if you get caught up in the spirit of the Olympics, as I can assure I will, pop in one of those movies and you'll be able to carry on the spirit of the Olympiad even without watching the events.
USA ALL THE WAY!
ps. Shaun White should you read this...will you be my valentine?
The Olympics, whether they be summer or winter, are one my favorite displays of athletic competition. It the one time that no matter what else is going on in the world nations come together in honor of sportsmanship and compete together. This year there are 82 countries compteting for gold, silver and bronze but like always there are those countries that will never see the podium. One might wonder why even pay the airfare to travel to Canada from Montenegro if your country has little chance of winning.
It's not about winning for many Olympians its about competeing against the best of the best. Its about comparing skills and learning from other athletes. Think of the lessons learned by other snowboarders when they see what Shaun White is capable of in the half-pipe. Sure many of them can't even dream of being as good or better them him, but watching what he does inspires them to try harder and practice longer.
Speaking as some one who has never considered myself to be especially patriotic, I am always shocked by the Olympics. The thing that shocks me is how my heart strings are tugged each time the national anthem is played and the flag is raised. While athletes stand on the podium, choking back tears I too sit in my family room choking back the same tears. I am not an easy crier but play the national anthem, raise the flag and put a teary eyed Michelle Quan on the podium and I'm like a baby. It's a phenomenon that surprises me every time it happens- but its not an unwelcome phenomenon. I'm glad to know that although I am not always enthusiastic about our nation's government that I am still a patriot at heart. I hope that many others can relate to my experience and that they too find themselves reaching for the Kleenex box during the medal ceremonies.
The Olympics this hear are starting with a bang and seem to hold a lot of excitement. Canada has already come out and said that they want to run the podium this year and win more metals then any other country- this may seem like a lofty goal but consider they were third in the metal count in the 2006 Olympics. I trust that the United States, Germany, Norway and others will give the Canadian's a run for their money but I wish them the best of luck. Being from Detroit which is a stone's throw from Canada I feel a ting of patriotism for my neighbor to the north.
I wish all the athletes the best of luck no matter their country. I look forward to watching the competition and all the historic moments that I'm sure will occur over the next few weeks. When I think of the Olympics I can't help but reference both Miracle and Might Ducks 2. Both movies reference the Olympics (although in D2 its called the Junior Goodwill Games) and both are inspiring to say the least. So if you get caught up in the spirit of the Olympics, as I can assure I will, pop in one of those movies and you'll be able to carry on the spirit of the Olympiad even without watching the events.
USA ALL THE WAY!
ps. Shaun White should you read this...will you be my valentine?
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Growing up Grosse Pointe
So usually all my posts are concerning some television show that I am watching- but this time it's not the same although this thought came to me while I was watching the Real World.
I have grown up in a upper middle to upper class neighborhood and because of that I have been luck enough to live a very good life and my parents have done a lot for me. I appreciate all things that have been done for me and understand that most people are not ask lucky as I am to have parents like mine. After graduating from college without a job my parents welcomed me back into their home- yes I have to pay rent but at least I have somewhere to live. In addition they gave me a car when I was a junior in college that is essentially my own. I do not have to pay for anything besides the gas that runs the car.
That having been said, throughout my life I have been called spoiled and a brat by people that I barely even know. They knew where I was from and that was about it- and yet they felt they knew me enough to say what type of a person I am. One time in particular was when I was wearing a sweatshirt from my high school and someone from Michigan saw it. They saw I was from Grosse Pointe and immediately said "Oh so you're rich."
The thing that first came to mind was "who the fuck do you think you are?" but I have a little more class then that. So I went the sarcastic route and said "um no- I have about 400 dollars in my bank account". The person then looked at me and told me that I "knew" what they meant. If what they meant was that because I live in a certain area they have the right to assume my family has money- yea I know what you meant and you're an asshole.
I have had that experience more then once and it gets me everytime. The fact that I live in a certain area and my parents have a certain profession people think they I am rich and live the good life. Yes I will admit that I get a lot from my parents and that I might have more then some- but a lot of what I have I worked for. I know what an honest days work is and I am insulted when people insuate that I don't. I am not spoiled and I am not a bitch so don't call me that.
You may be wondering where all these feelings are coming from- and yes they are coming from the real world. On tonight's episode one girl called another girl a spoiled brat without knowing much about her family or her past. I know the feeling and it sucks and hearing that reminded me of how I felt when it happened to me.
So I guess the purpose of this blog is to wake people up to the fact that you shouldn't ever judge someone by where they are from, what their parents do, what kind of clothes they were ect... Yes I know that I am complaining about being judged and that some people might read this and say "oh poor little daddy's little girl". I am not trying to say that what I've experienced is as bad as what say an black person does- but being judged is being judged no matter the circumstances. So next time you meet someone from out of town and you think you know something about them from their hometown- keep your damn mouth shut.
I am not my parents and I do not pay the morage on my house. I don't have a huge bank account and I am not a little rich girl. Please do not assume that I am when you see me in jeans, uggs and what looks like a north face. Because the reality is that it's not a north face I paid 15 dollars for it at Marshalls. The jeans where 10 dollars at TJ Maxx and the uggs were a gift from my parents for losing 50 pounds over the last year.
In reality I am a nice person (from what I've heard) and I am a good friend. The money that I do have I save but am willing to lend to anyone who needs it that care about. Get to know me past my zip code and you'll see what all my friends see in me. I'd love to be your friend as long as you check your attitude and judgment and the door and I promise I'll do the same.
Cheers! Have a good night all!
I have grown up in a upper middle to upper class neighborhood and because of that I have been luck enough to live a very good life and my parents have done a lot for me. I appreciate all things that have been done for me and understand that most people are not ask lucky as I am to have parents like mine. After graduating from college without a job my parents welcomed me back into their home- yes I have to pay rent but at least I have somewhere to live. In addition they gave me a car when I was a junior in college that is essentially my own. I do not have to pay for anything besides the gas that runs the car.
That having been said, throughout my life I have been called spoiled and a brat by people that I barely even know. They knew where I was from and that was about it- and yet they felt they knew me enough to say what type of a person I am. One time in particular was when I was wearing a sweatshirt from my high school and someone from Michigan saw it. They saw I was from Grosse Pointe and immediately said "Oh so you're rich."
The thing that first came to mind was "who the fuck do you think you are?" but I have a little more class then that. So I went the sarcastic route and said "um no- I have about 400 dollars in my bank account". The person then looked at me and told me that I "knew" what they meant. If what they meant was that because I live in a certain area they have the right to assume my family has money- yea I know what you meant and you're an asshole.
I have had that experience more then once and it gets me everytime. The fact that I live in a certain area and my parents have a certain profession people think they I am rich and live the good life. Yes I will admit that I get a lot from my parents and that I might have more then some- but a lot of what I have I worked for. I know what an honest days work is and I am insulted when people insuate that I don't. I am not spoiled and I am not a bitch so don't call me that.
You may be wondering where all these feelings are coming from- and yes they are coming from the real world. On tonight's episode one girl called another girl a spoiled brat without knowing much about her family or her past. I know the feeling and it sucks and hearing that reminded me of how I felt when it happened to me.
So I guess the purpose of this blog is to wake people up to the fact that you shouldn't ever judge someone by where they are from, what their parents do, what kind of clothes they were ect... Yes I know that I am complaining about being judged and that some people might read this and say "oh poor little daddy's little girl". I am not trying to say that what I've experienced is as bad as what say an black person does- but being judged is being judged no matter the circumstances. So next time you meet someone from out of town and you think you know something about them from their hometown- keep your damn mouth shut.
I am not my parents and I do not pay the morage on my house. I don't have a huge bank account and I am not a little rich girl. Please do not assume that I am when you see me in jeans, uggs and what looks like a north face. Because the reality is that it's not a north face I paid 15 dollars for it at Marshalls. The jeans where 10 dollars at TJ Maxx and the uggs were a gift from my parents for losing 50 pounds over the last year.
In reality I am a nice person (from what I've heard) and I am a good friend. The money that I do have I save but am willing to lend to anyone who needs it that care about. Get to know me past my zip code and you'll see what all my friends see in me. I'd love to be your friend as long as you check your attitude and judgment and the door and I promise I'll do the same.
Cheers! Have a good night all!
The Real World
God do I love the Real World....tackling tough issues one episode at a time. Tonight's issue was depression, brought up by the lovely Erica who suffers from depression and was even hospitalized for it.
I have a love hate relationship with the Real World. I love the show because of the insane drama that occurs on every episode and the fact that the producers delude themselves enough to actually believe that what they are capturing is close to what happens in the Real World.
I hate to break it to them but they are not capturing the Real World. What they are doing is throwing a bunch of hormonal late teen to early twenties kids in a house, giving them a camera crew to follow them around and asking them to create authentic television. Nothing that a person does when they have a camera on them 24/7 is going to be anywhere close to authentic. These people are acting and playing up all their issues for the camera so they can get the most camera time.
I feel that it is stupid that people take this show seriously and think that it's authentic at all. If you were to throw 7-8 strangers in a house together they would not all the sudden start spilling their secrets and pasts to each other. The only reason they open up the way they do is because they have nothing else to do in their house and they are feed alcohol constantly.
The bone that I have to pick with the particular episode that I'm watching right now is that fact that all these people act as though they are friends and yet bitch about each other to the camera when they are alone in the confessional. It's like this:
Erica: OMG bff!!
Ashley: Yea I know I f-ing love you Erica
Erica: We should live together after this!!!!
**Erica walks into the confessional**
Erica: OMG I FUCKING HATE ASHLEY!!!!!
Seriously I know that in the real world people do shit talk each other- but not in that way. People say that sorority girls are bitches take a look at the girls on the real world. I think that people need to balls up on this show and be honest. As I'm writing this the two girls that have been two-faced bitches to each other for this whole episode have finally come clean with each others THANK GOD!!!
So yes I love the drama of the real world...I love watching roommates sleep with each other or freak out when one of them is gay and the rest of them don't accept it. But what I don't love is the delusion that this show perpetuates to the rest of the country. As a 22 year old person (falling well within the target age group of the show) I can tell you that if you stuck me in a house with a bunch of people that I didn't know I would not act that way these people do. I would not drink myself into idiocy and I wouldn't lay all my problems out for America to see. Don't these people realize that life exists outside of the show and what they do on the show is going to be seen by employers. good luck getting a job crazy!
In conclusion I do not think that MTV should take the Real World off the air I just think they should re-name the show and categorize things differently- its not a reality show its a scripted reality show.
I have a love hate relationship with the Real World. I love the show because of the insane drama that occurs on every episode and the fact that the producers delude themselves enough to actually believe that what they are capturing is close to what happens in the Real World.
I hate to break it to them but they are not capturing the Real World. What they are doing is throwing a bunch of hormonal late teen to early twenties kids in a house, giving them a camera crew to follow them around and asking them to create authentic television. Nothing that a person does when they have a camera on them 24/7 is going to be anywhere close to authentic. These people are acting and playing up all their issues for the camera so they can get the most camera time.
I feel that it is stupid that people take this show seriously and think that it's authentic at all. If you were to throw 7-8 strangers in a house together they would not all the sudden start spilling their secrets and pasts to each other. The only reason they open up the way they do is because they have nothing else to do in their house and they are feed alcohol constantly.
The bone that I have to pick with the particular episode that I'm watching right now is that fact that all these people act as though they are friends and yet bitch about each other to the camera when they are alone in the confessional. It's like this:
Erica: OMG bff!!
Ashley: Yea I know I f-ing love you Erica
Erica: We should live together after this!!!!
**Erica walks into the confessional**
Erica: OMG I FUCKING HATE ASHLEY!!!!!
Seriously I know that in the real world people do shit talk each other- but not in that way. People say that sorority girls are bitches take a look at the girls on the real world. I think that people need to balls up on this show and be honest. As I'm writing this the two girls that have been two-faced bitches to each other for this whole episode have finally come clean with each others THANK GOD!!!
So yes I love the drama of the real world...I love watching roommates sleep with each other or freak out when one of them is gay and the rest of them don't accept it. But what I don't love is the delusion that this show perpetuates to the rest of the country. As a 22 year old person (falling well within the target age group of the show) I can tell you that if you stuck me in a house with a bunch of people that I didn't know I would not act that way these people do. I would not drink myself into idiocy and I wouldn't lay all my problems out for America to see. Don't these people realize that life exists outside of the show and what they do on the show is going to be seen by employers. good luck getting a job crazy!
In conclusion I do not think that MTV should take the Real World off the air I just think they should re-name the show and categorize things differently- its not a reality show its a scripted reality show.
Friday, February 5, 2010
weight loss
I am sooo frustrated!!! Over the past year I've lost nearly 50 pounds and now suddenly over the past month my weight loss has come to a stop. Not only has it stopped I've started to gain weight slightly. Yes its only a few pounds but I'm really starting to get frustrated.
I eat a small amount of food during the day- if I were to eat less I'm convinced that I would be hungry all the time. I run or at least walk every day. Today I ran 3 miles and according to my tredmill burned 550 calories, yet I gained weight. I just don't understand. I've cut out pop for the week thinking that less sodium might be the ticket to losing more weight but that doesn't seem to make a difference at all.
I'm starting to think that it might be my birth control that is stunting my weight loss but that confuses me because it hasn't interfered prior to this. I'm really starting to worry that something is wrong with me. I'm not sure what would be causing the weight gain but it's so frustrating. So for the next week I'm going to eat even less then what I've been eating and do my best to work out for over an hour everyday. Hopefully I can figure this out because if I don't figure it out soon I could go insane.
Not only could I go insane but I might start crying. I have worked so hard and I've changed my diet so much that it's not fair that all the sudden things are being reversed on me. Its like it wasn't even worth the last year of hard work because now my body is decided that it just wants to gain all the weight back.
i hate my life.
I eat a small amount of food during the day- if I were to eat less I'm convinced that I would be hungry all the time. I run or at least walk every day. Today I ran 3 miles and according to my tredmill burned 550 calories, yet I gained weight. I just don't understand. I've cut out pop for the week thinking that less sodium might be the ticket to losing more weight but that doesn't seem to make a difference at all.
I'm starting to think that it might be my birth control that is stunting my weight loss but that confuses me because it hasn't interfered prior to this. I'm really starting to worry that something is wrong with me. I'm not sure what would be causing the weight gain but it's so frustrating. So for the next week I'm going to eat even less then what I've been eating and do my best to work out for over an hour everyday. Hopefully I can figure this out because if I don't figure it out soon I could go insane.
Not only could I go insane but I might start crying. I have worked so hard and I've changed my diet so much that it's not fair that all the sudden things are being reversed on me. Its like it wasn't even worth the last year of hard work because now my body is decided that it just wants to gain all the weight back.
i hate my life.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
America's Next Top Model
As with most Saturdays I find myself sitting on the couch and watching re-runs of America's Next Top Model. This week's season happens to feature the one and only "plus-size" winner of the show Whitney. The episode that I'm watching right now features the girls going on different "go sees" through out New York City. This means they are going to meet with various designers in attempt to secure jobs with them.
During this episode Whitney isn't getting as positive feedback as some of the other girls. This is because she is a size 10 rather then a size 0. This leads to her launching into a rant about how she is discriminated against by designers for being plus sized. After having to listen to her stupid rant I feel as though I have a right to respond.
First of all as someone who used to be a size 12/14 I know how you feel but I think that you are being slightly over dramatic about the situation. You are in a business where you know that most designers are looking for size 0 or size 2 to wear their clothes in shows. So I'm not sure why you are so upset when you knew what you were getting yourself into. Next, if you looked around and saw how heavy many other Americans would you would realize that you are not really that big and that you have no idea what it is like to be discriminated against because of your weight. Whitney watch the biggest loser and see that there are people in our country that weight nearly and upwards of 500 pounds. I'm sorry but I just don't feel bad for you when you are almost 6 feet tall and probably weight 180-200 pounds.
You have no right to get up on your soup box and preach about knowing what it feels like to be discriminated against. You don't know what it feels like to get on an airplane have to ask for a seatbelt extender because you can't buckle it around your stomach. And even though you happen to be bigger then the girls on the show, I'm sure that you don't get stared at when you go out in public because of your size. So in closing I have just one last thing to say:
GET OVER YOURSELF! IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE WAY YOU LOOK THEN GET ON THE TREDMILL AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT
During this episode Whitney isn't getting as positive feedback as some of the other girls. This is because she is a size 10 rather then a size 0. This leads to her launching into a rant about how she is discriminated against by designers for being plus sized. After having to listen to her stupid rant I feel as though I have a right to respond.
First of all as someone who used to be a size 12/14 I know how you feel but I think that you are being slightly over dramatic about the situation. You are in a business where you know that most designers are looking for size 0 or size 2 to wear their clothes in shows. So I'm not sure why you are so upset when you knew what you were getting yourself into. Next, if you looked around and saw how heavy many other Americans would you would realize that you are not really that big and that you have no idea what it is like to be discriminated against because of your weight. Whitney watch the biggest loser and see that there are people in our country that weight nearly and upwards of 500 pounds. I'm sorry but I just don't feel bad for you when you are almost 6 feet tall and probably weight 180-200 pounds.
You have no right to get up on your soup box and preach about knowing what it feels like to be discriminated against. You don't know what it feels like to get on an airplane have to ask for a seatbelt extender because you can't buckle it around your stomach. And even though you happen to be bigger then the girls on the show, I'm sure that you don't get stared at when you go out in public because of your size. So in closing I have just one last thing to say:
GET OVER YOURSELF! IF YOU DON'T LIKE THE WAY YOU LOOK THEN GET ON THE TREDMILL AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT
Friday, January 29, 2010
What Not To Wear
Since my parents have been gone out of the country for the last two weeks I have been spending a lot of time with my good friend telli aka the television. One thing that I've been watching a lot of is What Not To Wear. Everytime I see an episode I wonder to myself, "what would Stacey and Clinton think if they ever saw me?"
I would like to think that I know how to dress myself, but do I? If I put myself in Stacey's way too high heeled shoes and looked at myself I think that I might realize that I don't really know how to dress myself as well as I think. I definitely have those pieces that are nice and that would make good outfits, but I probably need some what of an overhaul on my wardrobe. We would have to start with the amount of sweatpants and sweatshirts I own.
Looking in my closet right now I can say that I own about 30 sweatshirts and between 5 and 10 pairs of sweatpants. Yes I know that I should have these in my wardrobe but at the same time, in my defense, I know when to wear them and when not to. I know that I shouldn't wear them outside the house, which I rarely do anymore, and that when I'm around people I shouldn't wear them either.
Sometimes when watching What Not To Wear I also start to think that they sometimes are a little hard on these people. I mean have they ever heard of sympathy? Yes some of these people are hot messes but can't they be a little understanding that some times you just want to be comfortable.
I would also like to see what they have deep in the back of their closets. Don't you ever wonder? Does Stacey really have a pair of ratty sweatpants that she puts on late at night when she's alone enjoying a carton of Ben and Jerry's? Or does she have one of those tacky holiday sweaters she is so unforgiving of? You know maybe it is something that she got when she was younger and it has sentimental value?
I think for the 500th episode of What Not To Wear Stacey and Clinton should both open up their closets completely and let America see what's inside. Let's see if they really have a leg to stand on once we all get to see what they are hiding in the back of their closets.
But in all honesty, I love this show and it is helpful. I mean look at the people that go on the show and look what the come away looking like. Stacey and Clinton definitely know what they are doing and I secretly hope that one day I can go on the show just so I can get fashion advice from them. Watching the show has taught me a few tricks that I can use and I remember their rules sometimes when I'm walking through a store looking at clothes.
Hats off to TLC for having at least one program on their network that is actually worth watching. Alright well two because who doesn't love Say Yes To The Dress. But if they could put more What Not To Wear on and less 19 Kids and Counting or Baby Store or Bringing Home Baby or Little People Big World, they would probably have more people watching their network. Lets be honest what would you rather watch? A show that you can learn useful fashion tips from or a family who's parents reproduce at the same rate as rabbits?
I would like to think that I know how to dress myself, but do I? If I put myself in Stacey's way too high heeled shoes and looked at myself I think that I might realize that I don't really know how to dress myself as well as I think. I definitely have those pieces that are nice and that would make good outfits, but I probably need some what of an overhaul on my wardrobe. We would have to start with the amount of sweatpants and sweatshirts I own.
Looking in my closet right now I can say that I own about 30 sweatshirts and between 5 and 10 pairs of sweatpants. Yes I know that I should have these in my wardrobe but at the same time, in my defense, I know when to wear them and when not to. I know that I shouldn't wear them outside the house, which I rarely do anymore, and that when I'm around people I shouldn't wear them either.
Sometimes when watching What Not To Wear I also start to think that they sometimes are a little hard on these people. I mean have they ever heard of sympathy? Yes some of these people are hot messes but can't they be a little understanding that some times you just want to be comfortable.
I would also like to see what they have deep in the back of their closets. Don't you ever wonder? Does Stacey really have a pair of ratty sweatpants that she puts on late at night when she's alone enjoying a carton of Ben and Jerry's? Or does she have one of those tacky holiday sweaters she is so unforgiving of? You know maybe it is something that she got when she was younger and it has sentimental value?
I think for the 500th episode of What Not To Wear Stacey and Clinton should both open up their closets completely and let America see what's inside. Let's see if they really have a leg to stand on once we all get to see what they are hiding in the back of their closets.
But in all honesty, I love this show and it is helpful. I mean look at the people that go on the show and look what the come away looking like. Stacey and Clinton definitely know what they are doing and I secretly hope that one day I can go on the show just so I can get fashion advice from them. Watching the show has taught me a few tricks that I can use and I remember their rules sometimes when I'm walking through a store looking at clothes.
Hats off to TLC for having at least one program on their network that is actually worth watching. Alright well two because who doesn't love Say Yes To The Dress. But if they could put more What Not To Wear on and less 19 Kids and Counting or Baby Store or Bringing Home Baby or Little People Big World, they would probably have more people watching their network. Lets be honest what would you rather watch? A show that you can learn useful fashion tips from or a family who's parents reproduce at the same rate as rabbits?
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Jersey Shore
Right now I am sitting on my couch with am empty feeling inside. Tonight is the first Thursday in several weeks that I won't be tuning in and spending time with my good friends: Ronnie, J-Wow, Sammi, Snooki, The Situation and Pauly D.
Not seeing those overly tan, expletive shouting, alcoholic, hot tub loving Shore residents is like a day without the sun. Those goof balls have brought so much hilarity into my life, when really I didn't expect the show to be anything good.
I remember the first day I met those lovable self-proclaimed Guidos and Guittets. It was a Thursday night and I was flipping through channel attempting to find something to watch. And then I stumbled upon a show, that at first glance seemed like the lowest reality television had ever stooped. I watched the first five minutes and had an overwhelming urge to change the channel. I am a die-hard reality television lover but even I felt my brain cells dying a slow and painful death with each second I watched.
But fate much have interviened in some way, because for some reason my finger just couldn't find the channel button. For some reason even though my brain was screaming "CHANGE THE CHANNEL" my body wouldn't respond. And now I can't thank my body enough for disobeying my mind.
Over the course of several weeks I became to a part of the Shore House Family. I learned love the assholeness of The Situation and adored the blossoming love between Sammi and Ronnie. I felt like I had another brother in Vinnie and how he was the most awkward of the bunch. I like most applauded J-Wow when she got up the nerve (drunk or not) to slap The Situation. He finally got what he deserved and for a second he might have realized how big of a d-bag he really is.
I like most laughed when Snooki could figure out how to hang up the duck phone. And I, like most, watched with horror as Snooki caught a punch to the face from a drunk idiot. I felt like if I had been born in New York in the right neighborhood I could have been a Guidette just like Snooki. I would have rocked the poof and spend countless hours giving myself skin cancer in a tanning bed.
The point of this all is to say that now that Jersey Shore is over and their summer has ended I feel lost inside. How am I supposed to learn the proper fist pumping technique if Vinnie isn't on to watch? How am I supposed to learn what a unhealthy summer romance is without seeing Sammi and Ronnie?
How am I supposed to envy the Situation and learn how to do a proper blow-out without Jersey Shore in my life? I find myself praying for re-runs to be on so I can just visit with my friends.
I'm not sure that anyone thought that Jersey Shore would have caught on the way that it did. I believe that most people shared my initial reaction of repulsion when they first saw the show. But MTV had the last laugh, like always, when their new reality show caught on and spread like wildfire. It became a cultural phenomenon over night and I like most was shocked.
Now don't get me wrong, as part Italian I feel a slight sting whenever I hear them say Guido. And I don't think that the behavior of over drinking and having tons of random sex is a good thing for MTV to show all over television. I feel like they are spreading a message that drinking too much and having sex with people you don't know is how you have an amazing summer. That is definitely the wrong message to send and I hope that most teens that watch the show have enough brain cells to know that they should not attempt to replicate their lifestyle.
To end I will make a public internet plea to MTV:
PLEASE CONTINUE THE JERSEY SHORE! I would recommend that you keep the same people on the show, but if you are so inclined you can get new people. Or maybe mix and max. But you can't introduce this type of show and then take it off the air after one season. It's like giving someone enough drugs to get them addicted and then making the stop cold turkey.
Not seeing those overly tan, expletive shouting, alcoholic, hot tub loving Shore residents is like a day without the sun. Those goof balls have brought so much hilarity into my life, when really I didn't expect the show to be anything good.
I remember the first day I met those lovable self-proclaimed Guidos and Guittets. It was a Thursday night and I was flipping through channel attempting to find something to watch. And then I stumbled upon a show, that at first glance seemed like the lowest reality television had ever stooped. I watched the first five minutes and had an overwhelming urge to change the channel. I am a die-hard reality television lover but even I felt my brain cells dying a slow and painful death with each second I watched.
But fate much have interviened in some way, because for some reason my finger just couldn't find the channel button. For some reason even though my brain was screaming "CHANGE THE CHANNEL" my body wouldn't respond. And now I can't thank my body enough for disobeying my mind.
Over the course of several weeks I became to a part of the Shore House Family. I learned love the assholeness of The Situation and adored the blossoming love between Sammi and Ronnie. I felt like I had another brother in Vinnie and how he was the most awkward of the bunch. I like most applauded J-Wow when she got up the nerve (drunk or not) to slap The Situation. He finally got what he deserved and for a second he might have realized how big of a d-bag he really is.
I like most laughed when Snooki could figure out how to hang up the duck phone. And I, like most, watched with horror as Snooki caught a punch to the face from a drunk idiot. I felt like if I had been born in New York in the right neighborhood I could have been a Guidette just like Snooki. I would have rocked the poof and spend countless hours giving myself skin cancer in a tanning bed.
The point of this all is to say that now that Jersey Shore is over and their summer has ended I feel lost inside. How am I supposed to learn the proper fist pumping technique if Vinnie isn't on to watch? How am I supposed to learn what a unhealthy summer romance is without seeing Sammi and Ronnie?
How am I supposed to envy the Situation and learn how to do a proper blow-out without Jersey Shore in my life? I find myself praying for re-runs to be on so I can just visit with my friends.
I'm not sure that anyone thought that Jersey Shore would have caught on the way that it did. I believe that most people shared my initial reaction of repulsion when they first saw the show. But MTV had the last laugh, like always, when their new reality show caught on and spread like wildfire. It became a cultural phenomenon over night and I like most was shocked.
Now don't get me wrong, as part Italian I feel a slight sting whenever I hear them say Guido. And I don't think that the behavior of over drinking and having tons of random sex is a good thing for MTV to show all over television. I feel like they are spreading a message that drinking too much and having sex with people you don't know is how you have an amazing summer. That is definitely the wrong message to send and I hope that most teens that watch the show have enough brain cells to know that they should not attempt to replicate their lifestyle.
To end I will make a public internet plea to MTV:
PLEASE CONTINUE THE JERSEY SHORE! I would recommend that you keep the same people on the show, but if you are so inclined you can get new people. Or maybe mix and max. But you can't introduce this type of show and then take it off the air after one season. It's like giving someone enough drugs to get them addicted and then making the stop cold turkey.
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