Watching a show on MTV today got me thinking about crushes and all the ones I've had over the years.
I'm pretty sure I can still remember who my first crush was, it was second grade and I was just a girl. Of course to maintain my dignity I won't name names. When you're only 7 years old you have big dreams and think that the first boy who catches your eye on the playground is who you'll marry. Little did that version of me know, I'd be 25 and still very much single.
The show got me wondering, if I had been a little more daring and told even just one of those boys how I felt what would my life be like now. Now before we go down this road I should say that I'm very much against playing the what if game, however sometimes you just have to indulge.
If I had stepped up and told them that I liked them, would they have said they felt the same? I have a feeling that for the most part the answer would have been no. I was definitely one of the fat girls in high school and early college, and yet I crushed on the popular guys. I wouldn't have been surprised if they would have ran away in horror, or just laughed at me.
But what about when I got things in line and lost the weight. There was one guy in my last year of college - and I can't help but wonder.
I think that because I wasn't the cutest girl in high school, I just assume that no guy ever would find me attractive. This has led me to believe that the only boys who would crush on me are the ones who aren't my type. I've always felt that none of the cute, smart, handsome guys that I was friends with in college could possible be attracted to me.
I sometimes just wish that I could meet that guy who was my type and not afraid to say that he liked me. That would make life so much easier.
At this point I would even be completely open to my mother finding me someone. I mean she found my dad and he's pretty great so chances are she'd do a good job. Of course it's a slippery slope when you ask your mom to help you find a guy.
I just wish that the little girl inside me that quickly finds a new crush at all times would just have some balls and would push me to say something. Being afraid of rejection really makes it hard to believe that you'll ever find that person.
Anyway...this is supposed to be about crushes. Crushes really are a wonderful thing - they make you get that butterfly feeling in your stomach and believe in the possibilities of life. I think that crushes are meant to help keep the optimist and dreamer inside all of us alive.
Do you have a crush? I do - but I'm not telling who.
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Oh Bravo...
I want to be completely honest and transparent in this post so I should start by laying a few things out there:
1. I love about 90% of the shows that Bravo puts on their network, there are a few that I don't like but in general I'm on the Housewives train and have watched Top Chef since the beginning.
2. Not only is my father a doctor but so is my mother.
3. Being the child of doctors I am very sensitive to people stereotyping the lives and lifestyles of doctors.
All that being said, I just saw a commercial for a new show that Bravo is putting out there called Married to Medicine. Okay, just looking at the title I don't have any issues with this show. It seems like it would be a show focused on showing the lives of doctors and their wives/families.
Unfortunately for Bravo, I didn't just see the title I also saw the commercial that they put together for the show. All I have to say after watching this is "Bravo are you f***ing kidding me?". Throughout my life I've dealt with a lot of people having certain thoughts about me and my family based only on my parents jobs. And now Bravo has decided to turn it into a reality show, but judging by the commercial it's not an accurate showing.
First off, a real professional physician would not have the time or energy to let a camera crew follow them around long enough to get a full season of episodes. Which means that either these doctors aren't practicing full-time or, they aren't in the show very much and it's just showing their wives/families.
Watching the minute they showed of the things these women said and how they acted, these are women who married doctors for the lifestyle they thought came with that. I'd just like to say from experience that not everyone who is married to a doctor has over-priced clothing, cars, cosmetics and a home with a full stay 24 hours a day.
Not only did these women say stupid things like,"You need to start acting like a doctor's wife" but they are acting like animals. I'd like to know exactly what a doctor's wife is supposed to act like? I'm guessing that it's not running around yelling and screaming at other women.
This show, in my opinion, reduces the families of physicians to spoiled people who do nothing but tote their husband's/dad's profession as some kind of metal.
Doctors are professionals who spend their days caring for other, saving lives and making people feel better physically and mentally. It doesn't matter what you think about the amount of money they make or how much they spend on their cars or homes - you can't debate the fact that doctors make a real difference in the world.
Of all the doctors that I know very few shower their families with extravagant gifts, to the contrary they seem to be people who are focused on saving money and spending it wisely. Sure my parents have dropped some money on the house we live in and have taken us on nice vacations but I don't have an expensive car or a wardrobe worth thousands.
I just wise that Bravo would think more before they pitch these concepts for shows. Judging by the footage I saw, this show is just another variation on the real housewives. If they want to air more shows like that - either find other cities....or admit that you want to air more wealthy crazy women and just extend the seasons.
But for the love of GOD don't take a heroic admiral profession and reduce it down to a reality show that makes the families of physicians look like gold-digging spoiled people.
Thanks a lot Bravo as if I don't get enough shit already for what my parents do for a living.
1. I love about 90% of the shows that Bravo puts on their network, there are a few that I don't like but in general I'm on the Housewives train and have watched Top Chef since the beginning.
2. Not only is my father a doctor but so is my mother.
3. Being the child of doctors I am very sensitive to people stereotyping the lives and lifestyles of doctors.
All that being said, I just saw a commercial for a new show that Bravo is putting out there called Married to Medicine. Okay, just looking at the title I don't have any issues with this show. It seems like it would be a show focused on showing the lives of doctors and their wives/families.
Unfortunately for Bravo, I didn't just see the title I also saw the commercial that they put together for the show. All I have to say after watching this is "Bravo are you f***ing kidding me?". Throughout my life I've dealt with a lot of people having certain thoughts about me and my family based only on my parents jobs. And now Bravo has decided to turn it into a reality show, but judging by the commercial it's not an accurate showing.
First off, a real professional physician would not have the time or energy to let a camera crew follow them around long enough to get a full season of episodes. Which means that either these doctors aren't practicing full-time or, they aren't in the show very much and it's just showing their wives/families.
Watching the minute they showed of the things these women said and how they acted, these are women who married doctors for the lifestyle they thought came with that. I'd just like to say from experience that not everyone who is married to a doctor has over-priced clothing, cars, cosmetics and a home with a full stay 24 hours a day.
Not only did these women say stupid things like,"You need to start acting like a doctor's wife" but they are acting like animals. I'd like to know exactly what a doctor's wife is supposed to act like? I'm guessing that it's not running around yelling and screaming at other women.
This show, in my opinion, reduces the families of physicians to spoiled people who do nothing but tote their husband's/dad's profession as some kind of metal.
Doctors are professionals who spend their days caring for other, saving lives and making people feel better physically and mentally. It doesn't matter what you think about the amount of money they make or how much they spend on their cars or homes - you can't debate the fact that doctors make a real difference in the world.
Of all the doctors that I know very few shower their families with extravagant gifts, to the contrary they seem to be people who are focused on saving money and spending it wisely. Sure my parents have dropped some money on the house we live in and have taken us on nice vacations but I don't have an expensive car or a wardrobe worth thousands.
I just wise that Bravo would think more before they pitch these concepts for shows. Judging by the footage I saw, this show is just another variation on the real housewives. If they want to air more shows like that - either find other cities....or admit that you want to air more wealthy crazy women and just extend the seasons.
But for the love of GOD don't take a heroic admiral profession and reduce it down to a reality show that makes the families of physicians look like gold-digging spoiled people.
Thanks a lot Bravo as if I don't get enough shit already for what my parents do for a living.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
So it's been a while
After all this time it's hard to know what to write.
Should I say that I wish I would have posted more? Sure I could say that - but I also am a firm believer that you shouldn't just talk (or in this case blog) for no reason. I wanted to wait until I truly had something to say.
The past few months have been full of changes and obstacles for me. I had a come to jesus with one of my closest friends and truly worried if we would over come the issue we were facing. Luckily for me we talked it out like adults and are now better than every. This is good for me because she is the person that I think understands my creative side more than everyone else.
It was hard to hear that a friend felt like I wasn't there for her, and that I wasn't being a good friend but I realized that it's not just about how I act but how people understand my actions. Although it was a hard lesson to learn I'm glad that I did.
I also learned that while it might be hard to truly share how you're feeling about a situation at work - but sometimes it's what is necessary. I finally decided to share my true feelings about a project and a co-worker with not just my bosses but the co-worker. It was scary and uncomfortable, honestly it wasn't something I wanted to do, it helped in the end. I went from feeling like I was coming to work to work with someone that hated me, to understanding that sometimes people are just trying to push you to be better. That sometimes they see the potential in you that you can't see and so they're hard on you to make sure you fulfill your potential.
A lot of times people go into these kinds of situations thinking that you need to say the "professional" thing and leave your emotions at home. However for me it was only when I truly showed my emotions and was honest that my co-worker truly got the message.
Also at work I learned about accepting new responsibilities and the importance of being flexible. I was transitioned into a new role (one I wasn't super pumped about) and had to learn how to do it without letting my feelings get in the way.
Overall the end of 2012 and beginning of 2013 have thus far been full of learning experiences and happy experiences. I have gained many new wonderful friends in the past few months and they have improved my life for the better.
You might be wondering what the point of this post is...I want to share with you the importance of understanding and treasuring each life experience whether good or bad. Sometimes the worst experiences, ones that turn you into a crying mess, teach you the most.
The way to make your life better each day is to take every experience and try to learn at least one thing from it. If you can do that you'll be a person who grows and evolves each day into a better person - and who doesn't want that.
Should I say that I wish I would have posted more? Sure I could say that - but I also am a firm believer that you shouldn't just talk (or in this case blog) for no reason. I wanted to wait until I truly had something to say.
The past few months have been full of changes and obstacles for me. I had a come to jesus with one of my closest friends and truly worried if we would over come the issue we were facing. Luckily for me we talked it out like adults and are now better than every. This is good for me because she is the person that I think understands my creative side more than everyone else.
It was hard to hear that a friend felt like I wasn't there for her, and that I wasn't being a good friend but I realized that it's not just about how I act but how people understand my actions. Although it was a hard lesson to learn I'm glad that I did.
I also learned that while it might be hard to truly share how you're feeling about a situation at work - but sometimes it's what is necessary. I finally decided to share my true feelings about a project and a co-worker with not just my bosses but the co-worker. It was scary and uncomfortable, honestly it wasn't something I wanted to do, it helped in the end. I went from feeling like I was coming to work to work with someone that hated me, to understanding that sometimes people are just trying to push you to be better. That sometimes they see the potential in you that you can't see and so they're hard on you to make sure you fulfill your potential.
A lot of times people go into these kinds of situations thinking that you need to say the "professional" thing and leave your emotions at home. However for me it was only when I truly showed my emotions and was honest that my co-worker truly got the message.
Also at work I learned about accepting new responsibilities and the importance of being flexible. I was transitioned into a new role (one I wasn't super pumped about) and had to learn how to do it without letting my feelings get in the way.
Overall the end of 2012 and beginning of 2013 have thus far been full of learning experiences and happy experiences. I have gained many new wonderful friends in the past few months and they have improved my life for the better.
You might be wondering what the point of this post is...I want to share with you the importance of understanding and treasuring each life experience whether good or bad. Sometimes the worst experiences, ones that turn you into a crying mess, teach you the most.
The way to make your life better each day is to take every experience and try to learn at least one thing from it. If you can do that you'll be a person who grows and evolves each day into a better person - and who doesn't want that.
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